sans car

Sometimes I think I should just be one of those women who doesn't do driving. (I have an aunt who's one of these. Though I never got a clear answer about why.)

Fact is, I am just a crap driver.

I have had three as close to major as you get without people getting hurt accidents and countless mini-bingles with poles and the like. I'm not exaggerating either. I really have lost count.

I am surprised anyone will even insure me.

T. is so used to it, that this afternoon, he didn't even really get mad. Instead, he said: Oh, you were about due for one, and gave me a hug.

And I needed it.

I was a frightful sight.

I was hysterical. Absolutely hysterical.

I just remember pointing at the remains of the car and screaming (yes, literally screaming) about how I am about to do IVF and we can't afford this shit and something to the effect of: thanks a fucking lot, this is my chance to be a mother do you understand this is my mother-fucking baby you have just destroyed you have just killed my child.

I might have been going a bit overboard of course.

But still.

Being sans car is hardly an ideal state of affairs right now.

So.

Moral of the story is:

The little red hatchback is gone.

Goodbye little red hatchback. Such a long, tenacious life you led.

And then I find myself sitting here faced with the prospect of trying to think about how this could possibly be a good thing.

So ok.

Here we go:

Number 1: I am off the road. This is blessing in itself, I would say

Number 2: The car was a piece of crap anyway (well, it was after four years of me). It wasn't far from death, and we had been spending a lot of money just keeping it on the road

Number 3: We will spend less on petrol/rego/insurance and help the planet by using less of its precious natural resources (!)

Number 4: I can get lots of marking done on public transport that I would otherwise procrastinate (like now)

Number 5: I will now have to wait for buses in the cold, which means I will have a reason to wear all the many retro winter coats that I have collected over the years.

And I'm not sure that makes up for it.

But it's going to have to do.